They who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint (Isaiah 40:31). No matter what happens to you on earth, if you are a child of God, it will not overcome you. They may be able to kill your body, but they cannot kill your soul. They will do all sort of things to get you to dishonour God, but do not fear them. They do not have the last say, and they have no power over you, if God has not allowed it. Go through your life in the will of God, it may seem hard, but you will conquer and the victory will be yours in the end. Remember what Christ did; Had He come down from the cross when asked to, no one would have been saved, but for your sake and mine, He endured the pain (Matthew 27:42). If you do the same, you will receive the reward that comes to all who did not give up to wickedness. No matter what you go through now, take strength in the truth that God is with you through it all (Matthew 28:20) the pain, it will not last forever. There is light at the end of the tunnel, and you will have the victory when you receive your white stone with your new name on it (Revelation 2:17). What you go through now, may be helping others to be strong. God is with you always, your strength will return and you will walk and not faint. God bless you.